Posted by AmberLynn Robertson on September 15, 2021

Alan i cant believe its been five years already   Dang baby life has been so lonely and weird without you. I have been completely lost and feels like i dont kn ow myself without you here with me we were the best for one another. i hate the fact that you were taken from me and the kids. they miss you SOOOOOO much also. You were ALWAYS smiling and laughing when were together. i want you to know that i always loved you more than you know.  And i always think about the times lol when you were driving with me by yourself or when we had people in the car...lol you would constantly stare at me and say YOUR SO BEAUTIFUL>>.YOUR SO BEAUTIFUL::<<  I LOVE YOU<>>>>I LOVE YOU>>>over and over.  LMFAO!!! im laughing now. But my point is YOU SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ALL OUR FRIENDS THAT RODE WITH US WHEN YOU DROVE!! lol  Because you didn't watch the road you were constantly watching me.You would hit curbs etc. i remember u always stopping in the middle of the road at any random spot and time just so you could pick me flowers. you were so good to me Alan.  and i hate more than anything that you couldn't stay , but i be there soon enough baby. i could go on and on and on with the memories you left me with that we shared..  i will NEVER EVER forget the way you loved me i didn't tell you nearly enough how much i loved you and Caleb in my life.   your always with me i love you Alan  xoxoxo