August 23, 2018
August 23, 2018
Good morning baby !You are heavy on my mind this morning cant stop thinking about you ! i dont understand why you had to leave me and your loved ones why god choose you to leave us we need you here with us baby ! I Wished he would of taken me instead ! I Believe you were much stronger than me ,some days i just dont want to wake up because i know your not gonna be here with me ,Its soo hard baby being here without you !NOBODY understands the pain of loosing a spouse until they experience themself,I never thought i would !My whole life has changed ,I feel so alone even thou i got great family support i still feel alone ,I wake up every morning and go to bed every night alone in this empty big house !i go room to room and your not here !When we bought this house we had us and kids and 5 dogs ,then the dogs passed away and then it was us and kids then the kids moved on and then it was us the dog and cat then now you had to leave me now its just me the dog and cat in this house Nobody really ever comes to the house to visit ! Dad keeps the yard work up for me and always ask if i need anything done hes been great looking after things Dont know what i would do without him i know i can count on him in need but he is getting older and hes got his own things to take care of ! so i dont ask too much from him theres somethings i need done but i just try to do myself !Mom and Dad take me out on Saturdays to go eat i know they do that to get me out of the house so i dont have to eat by myself ! Mandy and Lauren have me over to eat some times to get me out of the house ,Melissa does what she can she has the kids to take care of thats alot on her !I really do appreicate everything everyone does for me,but i need you here with me baby ! My birthday is tomorrow i dont want to even wake up i want sleep through the day I know your not going to be here to spoil me and make my day special ,Mandy and Lauren are going to take me DG shopping to get my mind off not having you here for my day then Melissa is going to bring me some of her Lasanga she makes so good ! other then that i dont want my birthday acknowledged Im not even going to be on facebook tomorrow I dont want any Happy Birthdays because it wont be happy for me here without you baby! I Just miss US so much ! I Will Always Love You Bobby Lee Wright