My mom, my idol, my rock: It is exactly two weeks today that you left us broken... Mom your death and eternal silence will remain a mystery to me. I still find it hard to believe you are gone. My heart is bleeding, the pain is real, and my house is empty without you. Your grand kids, Ariel, Evan, Anu, & Rina all miss you and they continue to ask me when you will return. I told them they will never see you again because you are gone to glory, and Evan asked “can we buy another grandma.” I told him no, grandma is not replaceable, he ran off. Each time a grandma is mentioned, the kids think about you, and think it is you on the phone.
I had gotten comfortable with your tender loving care, coming home to a warm meal and a clean house after work. When I worked longer hours into the night, you will stay up all night waiting for my return before you can go to bed. You always cared about my well-being, and you always showed your love in an extra ordinary fashion. I was certain you will raise my kids for me just as I was raised by my grandmother. My kids have been denied that privilege by your untimely dead. Rina Njinkeng Tazisong, your mother’s namesake, is only 2 years old and you are gone to return no more. I used to look forward to your presence at Ariel’s high school graduation just like you were at her kindergarten’s graduation. It’s all fantasy now. The inevitable hands of death has taken you away from us. How cruel?
Now I realize the door has closed letting you out permanently. Your exit is so painful, and the heartache will never go away. On your sick bed you told me we will talk when you get well. I was hoping you will wake up from your sick bed and tell us how “uwa Nji” sent you back, but here we are, in deep sorrow and broken hearts. I still miss her too, she was an awesome grandmother. I am sure my brothers, Julius and Valentine, who preceded you in death will welcome you too in paradise, and you all will prepare a place for us as we will reunite one day in glory as the Lord allows. Mom you have always been my light, the light never faded but suddenly blackout and now am living in the shadow of darkness… LORD come to my rescue….
Am thankful for your love mom, and your kindness to humanity was phenomenal. I hope I can be able to emulate. I weep because I have been denied the chance to return your immeasurable love, to put a smile on your face again, I didn’t even get to say goodbye, it hurts… bye mom…I will always love you…Your memory will remain in my heart forever. Missing you mom, rest in perfect PEACE…