September 10, 2023
September 10, 2023
Don’t know why I felt compelled to write this. Feeling a little more sad today than usual. I haven’t written anything and I don’t know why, maybe I wasn’t ready yet and might still not be ready but life has me feeling blue lately. I’m sorry that I haven’t written to you but I just wanted to say not a day goes by that I don’t feel empty like a piece of me is missing and feel lost and sad that you aren’t here to joke around with. I honestly don’t know what else to say other than I miss you man. I’m waiting for this to get easier and it still feels the same..but that’s alright because I know in time somethings going to change and I know I’ll start to feel better but man it sucks. I just hope this message reaches you and somehow you reach me. I think you always knew how much you meant to me, it was unspoken, we could give each other a look after a fight or argument and instantly know it’s out of love. The good the bad all of it will forever be with me and I wouldn’t want anything any other way. I just want to say I am honored to have been your brother, you taught me so many lessons through the lens in which you viewed the world and the standard you held yourself to when it came to being there for others. You were selfless and always did what had to be done. Everything you have shown throughout your human experience I reflected on and it has molded me into who I am today. I am forever grateful for you and you allowing me to be your brother in this life..until the next, I love you and miss you.