My Dear GULSHAN,
Just about a year ago, my whole world changed in an instant when I heard about your sudden untimely death. One of the branches of my family tree irrevocably gone, never to return.
I have spent a lot of time this past year searching past events for a moment in which I might have made a difference in the ultimate outcome ; a word or two that may have helped you to understand just how loved you were, how important you were to me, to the whole family, to your friends. But I have arrived at no firm conclusions, except for the fact to blame myself for not providing you the help or support needed at that time to keep you alive. The GUILT will always remain there.
I am sorry GULSHAN, I am sorry for you, for myself and for everyone who cared so deeply about you. You were an amazing intelligent person with an uncommon intellectual curiosity. You were someone who have inspired, helped and supported so many on so many different levels.
Everyday, this is so hard…grieving your untimely death is hardest work ever. I am still struggling to find the New normal, to not constantly feel that hugh hole in my heart.
I keep working away at this whole grief process, and one thing I know : I am so grateful that you are my son GULSHAN and that I had the honour and pleasure of raising you and having you be a part of my life for almost 30 years.You brought a beautiful light to my life that I will always treasure.
Dear GULSHAN, I just really miss you ; your kindness; your love; your timely support; your evergreen ticklings; your brightness; your positive body-languageand above all your beautiful smile…everything was so special and unique.
Your life was a blessing, dear GULSHAN, and your precious memories are a treasure.
I wish you so much love and light always.
Much Love and Hugs to you.
Mukesh chopra
Yours loving father.