I know I can’t understand how much pain the Sevy family is in, and probably never will.
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So… the first time I’ve met Joel was in 5th grade (MY FIRST YEAR AT ISB), in which he was in my class. He was a pretty cool dude, or at least I thought, and I respected him and saw him as a friend. Then, in 6th grade, I was put in a class with his twin brother Leif, which I really liked. I thought of his as a best friend, even though he probably didn’t think the same as me. Then, as we moved on to 7th grade, I got even closer to Leif (well, I do certainly hope so). I guess you could say I started caring for Leif more, in a platonic sense.
How this all wraps around to Joel? When I first heard the news, the first thing I thought was about how young Joel was. Way too young. I was kinda in denial for a bit. My immediate next thought was how Leif would react. I realised how scared I was for Leif. How I don’t think he deserves to feel sad. (I may or may not have done a bit of researching on how to help someone going through a traumatic experience…)
I already lost a friend, I didn’t want to lose another.
Because I don’t think I’m talking clearly, what I actually mean is that Joel, Leif, and no one in the Sevy family deserved this. I don’t understand at all how such an awesome and cool and kind family has to go through this kind of thing.
This is for the Sevy family, especially Leif. Please, take my word for it, try to heal. Don’t bury yourself in guilt and grief, don’t push everyone away, don’t blame yourself.
This is probably isn’t great, but I think my biggest concern right now is Leif. Please. I really hope Leif is doing okay. (You can always talk to me)
I hope you’re gonna be okay.
I’m probably gonna regret writing this tomorrow because it sounds like a bunch of cheesy…stuff, but I’m being real. After writing so much, I don’t even think I got half of what I’m feeling on here. God, I sound so much like my therapist.(this is so long)
god this, whole thing is a hot mess. This whole situation is a hot mess.