Jordan was my baby, he was my everthing. When I found out I was pregnant I was terrified scared I wouldn't be a good mum but when Jordan was born I fell in love with him, he was such a good baby never cried much and slept all night. When he started getting older he was polite but I knew he had problems. But no matter his problems I loved him even when he would tell me he hated me I couldn't stop loving him but as he got older his mood and temper got worse it got harder to like him but never stopped loving him. Even when he was in the hospital on a ventilator I never stopped loving him even at the end when he went to heaven I still loved him. Even today 5yrs since he died I still love him and miss him loads and that beautiful smile he had.