Oh momma it still hurts so much. I know it will always be with me as will my memories of you.
  Did you ever stop hurting ? I'm becoming a empty shell and nobody cares to see it. So I guess it hurts less sometimes. There are more on your side than left over here...
  Am I done yet momma ? Will I ever be done.  I miss you always

The pain is as fresh as when you took your last breath, I felt you gently slide out of your body as you brushed my cheek... Time stopped... I stopped... I was mad and confused, How could every body just go on about their lives when mine had suffered such a horrible loss, I wanted to scream at everyone whats wrong with you people, don't you know MY JUST DIED. I didn't think I could stand it, I didn't I walked around with tears always in my eyes ready to spill over without knowing it for 2 1/2 years and still cry at the thought of the loss of you, I want to tell tell you how much I miss you and want you to know I get it now. You shared your life with a man not easy to share with, Had children who grew to be very different, and you always did your best for each of us, maybe not what they wanted but what they needed.  You suffered some great loses of sons and husband and sisters  OMG your Mother died. I get it the, the deep sadness the pain in your eyes. But a life well lived is one that touches another and you touched many. And I'm sorry for being a bad kid, but you know what I was just a kid. I Love you always MY MOTHER.