Hi, my sweet sister,
I'm just sitting here thinking about you, and wishing so much I could talk to you. There are a million things I'd love to talk to you about. I miss being able to do that more than I can say. I know you can hear me when I'm talking out loud to you, and probably even just when I'm thinking things. After our other wonderful sister died, I was so mad, and kept talking to you both and asking you how you could both just leave me because you guys were there all my life, and I couldn't remember ever being without you. I adore our brother, and am happy he's still here. But it's different with guys, especially when people get old. I cherish every time I'm with him, but he's not one for staying on the phone very long, and he's pretty busy with his girlfriend anyway. I'm glad of that, because I didn't want him to sit around and be lonely after Lorraine left us. I know it wasn't fair to be mad at you guys, and I'm sure you would've wanted to stay longer if you could've, but it's just so lonely without my big sisters. I know that one time, when I was thinking about you & wanted a sign from you, then 16 Candles played right when I was thinking that. And, as only you know, that song only has significance because we used to sing it all the time cause you did that one low part on it, when we would ride in the back of the pick-up going up to Gee-Gee & Grandpa's cabin - till we got scared when we were on the road going up to it that was so dark! Then we would quit singing, laugh, and cover up with a blanket, till we reached the cabin. So much fun! You were definitely my fun partner in life. I thank God every day for having you to grow up with, and share a lot of my adult life with. I know you would hate what's going on in the world now. It's all screwed up! So often, I just want to talk with you about the frustrations of everything that's going on. It's worse than ever - I'm so worried about our kids & grandkids. Maybe you can talk to God about it. A lot of people are saying it's the 'end of times'. That could be true, I guess. If so, the one thing about it is, I will see you & Sharon again. Mom too. Meanwhile, I'll dwell on my memories. I love my memories. Thank you for giving me such good ones. I love & miss you so much..