Mother's Day is coming this weekend. I miss you. I miss trying to make every mother's day special. Buying you Angeles and pretty cards. Dad would get you red roses. I can remember the camping trips and the way you smiled and laughed as long as we were in the mountains. I recall the long drives in the bug with cliffs on each side and dad just maneuvering through all the dirt roads throwing rocks with the tires. The smell of campfire and roasted marshmallows. Happy Mother's Day mom...I love you

I used to dread today...the day you let go of my hand. I thought that I wouldn’t cry today. I was wrong. You’re a part of me. You made me. Today was the day that daddy told me how much he loves you. You’re still his beautiful angel. Please make a special place for him in heaven beside you. He suffers so much and I think most of his pain is because he can’t be with you. The four girls have become the strongest, smartest, caring, giving, loving, and beautiful women, they are each so much like you. Spread you arms as wide as you can and hold our unborn babies next to the rest of your grand babies, great grand babies and now your great great grand baby. Daddy can’t stay here without much longer. His heart has always belonged to you. I love him and want him to stay as long as possible. I love you mama and I strive to make you proud. Wait for me...

February 18, 2020
Hi mama! I love you! Today is the day that you went to Jesus. Everyone feels you. We know that you are watching all of us. I’m sure that there have been times where you wanted to smack me upside the head and say, “what were you thinking?” I struggle to try to be more like you. You would help anyone and never second guess or question. You were amazing. I truly miss you

Happy birthday mom! I miss you so very very badly. I know that you are in the arms of Jesus but still, I wish I was In your arms. I believe that you have been watching over our family and that you were there when Alex had surgery. The girls always say, “if nanny were here, she would take care of it.” It’s the truth, you always fixed all of our problems. I miss you and love you dearly. Save me a place.

I miss you. Thank you for holding my hand when you flew away to the arms of our God

Happy Thanksgiving.... I love you. I wish that you were here cooking with me. I want to hug, talk, argue, laugh and watch the parade with you. I miss you.

I miss you mom. You would think that as the years pass without you here, that I would grow used to losing you, that's not the case... I miss you everyday. I wish that I could have one more hug, one more touch., one more word. I want to go back and say it's not OK, you can't go. Momma I need you. I'm so scared and I don't want to face going back to the oncologist without you. I love you so much and I miss you with all of me. You are the most amazing, strong, and beautiful woman I have ever met. Happy birthday momma.

Nanny I miss you more and more everyday. Life without you feels lonely and imperfect. You made life worth living and worth enjoying.