It plays over and over, I'm sorry it's your mom... She's dead. I will never forget the smell the feel of the air that night. The ground falling from under my feet and feeling alone and my life change in seconds. I felt part of me die as Well that night. The worse pain I've ever insured and the one person who always fixed me was the one who broke me when she left me that night. The things I should have said the things I live in shame for saying to her in a fight before she left this place. In hopes she was at least in peace knowing how much love we had for her. Wondering what her last thought was or how it felt. How I wish I could have held her and told her I love you mom, its ok and we're gonna be ok here till we hug again. I never looked at her like I might not again see her alive. I took our time for granted to busy to do some of the things she enjoyed with her. Laughing at her not so funny jokes. The pain of loosing her is painfull but the pain from the guilt and regret kills me every day.. Just remember the words you speak May be the last they ever here. You were my,hero mother and made me who I am today